I don't

I don't want to sound like I'm some sort of fool for love. But I can't hide what I am. The smallest things get me mad now. The other day, you decided to call me and ask how everything was. I was honestly speechless, too excited at the fact that you decided to call me to talk. After speaking for a few minutes, you ask if you can call me back, I made the mistake of letting you go. She says "I'll call you later ok?".....Who knew later could be so long.

Minutes turned to hours and the hours turned into days. Here I am, waiting for you to call. And I'm pretty sure you don't have the slightest clue of what you did to me, and what you will do to me. You know what? It's not okay.

You're killing me, Maryanne.

Ding dong

Everyone, I think it is safe to say, that I no longer feel comfortable with myself. I mean I am comfortable... I could care less what you think about me, but that's not the point. I feel like I'm trying to cover things up. I don't necessarily know what I'm trying to cover up, but I'm doing it. One day, both you and I will figure it out. But until then, Chris Nguyen is lost.

Maryanne.

Week

It's been a week since school ended. At one point, I wanted school to be over; I had no desire to be there anymore. But now, all I want to do is go back. I miss a lot of people, people who've made me who I am. What's weird is, I also miss people who I barely talked to. The people who I saw every single day but didn't say a word to. That's what I miss. Who misses me?

No one. Yeah, I'm sure

Here

So I finally got my bike, thanks Sean.

Graduation was today, I couldn't go. I can't help but feel bad, I let you down Chea. If you ever wanna chill; whatever it is that we do, I'll pay for it. It's been two days into the summer and I feel like I've already fucked up. I really can't change it right?

I have that feeling... When you fall head over heels for someone, and when that one person is all you seem to think about. That sudden infatuation, where you know there can be no relation. I try really hard just to keep quiet and act like this is all a joke, but it's not. I'd appreciate it if you just went ahead and told me to stop trying. Don't get me wrong, I'd do anything for you; but the way things are going, it hurts.

Home

Hey dad, you're finally home. You should be relatively happy Chris. Dad hasn't been home is so long.

I should be happy right? I mean, I was happy for the first hour or so, then everything changed. My dad is the strongest man on this earth. But now; sometimes, I can't even find the words to describe how his physical self is. Mentally..... it changes with the medication. I love my dad; and I would do anything for him, but the way he's acting makes my day that much worse. Hurry up and get better dad. Cause the way things are going, I might die before you.

At last.

No, I'm not too excited about the end of the year. I realize that the seniors I've gotten close to will permanently be out of my reach starting tomorrow. After they walk, it's over. Chea, I might not be able to make it to your big day, but know, that I thank you for everything you've done for me. When I do see you again, we'll chill and hopefully it will be the way it is now. On a heavier note, Kim; I have to admit, you were my senior crush. I knew that I had no chance from the beginning, but it's okay.. Actually, it's not. I'm never going to see you again, and the thought of not seeing anyone ever again kills me. All I can do is hope; and with that said, I hope I see you later on in life.

arMynAne. No chance right? With the school year coming to an end, I will no longer be able to see you. With my dad coming home and summer school, I'm going to put my social life aside and make my dad my number 1 priority. But knowing that I'm not good enough in the back of my mind makes everything worse. We'll talk next year, and maybe then will you stop_____ ___ __.

I have no clue what goes in the blank. Fill it in, you might be right.

Time

My name is Chris Nguyen, and I don't know what the hell I want. It's been a second since I posted, but now here I am. Last week of school and I feel normal. Currently, I have to poo; but I won't. Time will pass and things will happen. Who knows? Cause I sure don't.

Adios.

....

I need money for my bike. A lot of people owe me money and it's getting annoying. The end of the year is creeping up and you all know it. So I would appreciate it if you guys paid me already. I'm not naming names but $200 for the Itouch ($160), $15 for that bus pass you never got me, and $50 for your prom shoes.

Add that up and what do you have?

A guy who you took advantage of.