Flu

Yeah, you guessed it. I have the flu. My whole body aches, my stomach hurts, and my nose is constantly running. I don't know what to do, I should be studying for finals but it's too hard. I can't move and every time I get up and walk around, I feel myself wanting to sit back down.

Suck it up Chris.

Hello

I think it's safe to say I'm over everything now. I look at you now and what do I see? Someone who I lost, and I have no one to blame but myself. I mean don't get me wrong guys, I loved her to the fullest; but I really don't have a chance now, so I have to deal with it. Slowly but surely, my love for her will fade. So with that said, it feels a lot better to walk around school; or anywhere for that matter, without regrets.

Hi, my name is Chris Nguyen and I no longer feel for you.

You sure Chris?

Hi B'o

Hey dad. I know no one knows about this blog yet, but I haven't really talked about this matter at all even at school. I know it is an important situation, but I'm not 100% comfortable with the sharing of my feelings. At this point, dad, I no longer have the words to describe how much you mean to me. This cancer has nothing on you, I know you'll beat it and live a long and healthy life.

I try to visit you as much as I can; and every time I see you, I realize how great you are as a father and how great you will be in the future. I have no future without you, and I pray to God everyday that you'll get through this. I know blogs are of no value to you, but please, help my dad beat this cancer. Love you dad.

I know. That was half a year ago.. this school year is going by way too fast I don't know if I can keep up with it. At least we get to play cooler music next year, or at least I think so. David Ko can't march, he's left when we're all right.

School

Summer school is about to start for me at Mission. I don't only need to prepare myself mentally, but physically as well. With that said, I need a new bike. I've been looking on Craigslist a lot lately and I've found some great bikes for pretty cheap, but the only problem is.. How do I do the meetup with the guy? I mean, obviously I can't drive; which is why i need a bike, but how do I get there? And if I do get there, how do I fit the bike in the car?

Too many things to worry about and I'm not even done with the school year yet. I'm taking it one day at a time and I hardly think about the future anymore. What the hell do I do?

2

I'm writing two times in one day. This is a first for me, and hopefully, it will be my last. Maybe moving toward a relationship at this point in my life isn't such a good idea. Too many times have I set my girl and myself up for failure. Why put in the effort if the relationship is already headed for disaster?

Is it because I miss you so much that I try to pull out the negativity that's in the relationship we don't have? Is that why I'm thinking like this? If that's so, then it goes to show how much I still love and miss you. I can't have you, there's nothing else to say besides that.

The old days

I don't really know what I want anymore. I find myself being a lot more mean to the people who I care about the most. I do this a lot when I find myself in awkward situations that cannot be resolved by simply walking away. I don't know what's going on. Maybe I miss someone who I know I can no longer have. It was my own fault anyway, I'm the one trying to fill the void with rude gestures and I apologize for that. But then again, no one knows about this blog yet; therefore, no one knows how I'm currently feeling

I miss you a lot.. you might not realize who you are, but when you do, just know that I think about you often and that I am sorry for what I did. asdaIloveyousadfh

If you think you're the one I'm talking about.. You're wrong.


Cause I'm still in love with KrystleAnn Rasca Aspiras

Today

Again, I took my shower and went to school.

Now, everyday is the same for me.. I honestly can't wait until the school year ends. It's getting repedative and I'm fed up with Precal. Shit's too hard.

But anyways, after school today, Chea, Nicole and I went to downtown SJ. We ate at Pizza My Heart and then walked across the street to Jack in The Box. When I got there, I was in for some horrible shit. Two tacos there cost $1.29. WTF! I was hoping for 6 tacos for a little over 3 dollars but I was only able to get 4. I felt like killing myself; that's right..Chris Nguyen wanted to kill himself. Eh, tacos aren't worth it anyways.

Now that I am home, I am going to take a giant crap. Late Niggas.

Thanks Chea. Now that I think about it, Next year isn't gonna be the same without you. I'm fucking serious.

Today

So today was alright. I woke up earlier than usual today, and to be honest... I kind of enjoyed it.

So then I went to go take my shower. While in the shower, I decided to blow my nose. Now when I say "I blew my nose", I blew it. I mean there were boogers everywhere. On my hands, chest, nipples.. everywhere. But it was okay, the little nuggets washed off my body almost instantly.

School was okay, pretty much the usual. Then Nigga Chea drove me home. Thanks again dude, I appreciate it. I noticed how my sentences do not flow at all, and how my word choice isn't all it can be.. But whatever, I'm tired. Late